Today is the 4th of July! I joined my squad for launch today. The reunion was absolutely wonderful! I have missed these friends and it was great to see them all again. For the evening session the parents that had come to launch were able to join us all.
My immediate reaction was to start crying…
I kept looking at the door to see if my family was going to walk in even though I knew that financially we agreed it wasn't possible. I felt like a little kid again that was lost in a grocery store.
I'm doing something that most people think is crazy and for the next 11 months I will probably feel alone more and more even when I am surrounded by tons of people. I am learning to be okay with that.
The Lord is teaching me that it is in those moments I have a great opportunity to come to him. Many times I have caught myself believing the lies that I am not good enough for this, I'm not ready, I'm not adequate, the Lord didn't really call me, he doesn't want a broken person like me….
When I start to doubt, the Lord places people in my life to thwart those lies.
I rebuke those feelings of inadequacy and the lies from the devil. This morning I had some awesome strangers from the house I was staying at prophecy and speak truth over me. This was the 5th time that someone has spoken the words, "You're a warrior" over me. That has been the hardest thing for me to grasp but I can't wait for moments to arrive where that will come to fruition. A warrior is the furthest thing from how I view myself, but the Lord used a women named Jael to crush the Cannanites and He gave Deborah wisdom to lead the Israelites to victory as well as many awesome (B.A.) women in the bible. He has used Women Warriors before and y'all I couldn't be more excited to fight for the Lord's Kingdom.
