It is the start of mnoth 9 and that means that we have an excuse to be tired. Every day is not perfect and one could come up with many excuses not to be present. There are times when there is no place I would rather be than wandering around the North Cascades in the beauty of God’s creation and the almost forgotten place of silence and solitude. However, what the Lord has taught me about His kingdom work, community, and unity of the body has transcended my own desires for personal space, time, and liberties at this time.
This past month I have lived in a perpetual state of feeling like I can’t express my feelings adequately and continually feeling like I am running towards feelings and emotions I cannot catch (understand) but still run ferociously nonetheless. I rest assure that in God’s time he will bring me to that point of understanding. God is working in my heart(I will boast in that) and just walking me through trusting in Him and seeing more of His world. Teaching me to lead with a new passion and to be a man after Nehemiah… a leader who prays and a leader who prays for big things. A leader who when tempted with distraction responds, ” I am doing a great work and I cannot come down (Nehemiah 6:3).”
What do I pray for the last 3 months? That God would teach me more and more about what it means to abandon and trust him with everything. To give up the things I hold onto like my desire for adventure and independence which I hold so dear to myself. To quote Chris McCandless, “Happiness only real when shared.” Where do our passions lie? Well, they lie where we invest our time. Is God given top priority in your life and how is that evident in your life?
So are some desires for the last three months? To grow in faith, courage, and boldness in spreading the good news. To not be tired of doing good, but to trust in the Spirit and his guiding. To love in ways that it is not easy to love in, love with affirmation and criticism because I desire my brothers and sisters to walk in the freedom of Christ daily. Jesus himself said in John 10:10 “I have come to give life and life abundant.” The desire to seize that for myself and others is why the Lord brought me here.
This is my story… and it has only begun.
He who has begun a good work in you will carry it out until the day of completion. My prayer is that I and the world has only seen a glimpse of the glory of God to this point!
