It is so crazy for me to look back on the past few years! College has been a time that I saw as complete CoNfuSion.
I felt so lost, left alone, dissociated, useless, abandoned…
When the whole time GOD WAS THERE!
He was with me, just like He promised He always would be. But it is so much easier to doubt sometimes than to have faith! I really had come to a point where I wasn’t sure if God had any plan or future for me. I felt like I was just living life and like He wouldn’t really tell me what I was working towards or why I was doing it. Then came this one night, early December.
In the midst of a week where I was bombarded with doubts about my future, God spoke. I finally released my control to His, and put faith in knowing that He knew what was to come. So that night, God started really prompting me to look into the World Race again. I had heard about it years before and thought it sounded great, but I hadn’t thought about it in a while and definitely had never actively pursued it. Within 30 minutes after googling it, God spoke so loudly about this being where He wanted me! He directed me straight to route 1- to be leaving this July. Starting in Honduras and ending in the Philippines! These were the two countries heavy on my heart for missions, but in reading info on each of the 11 countries on this route I just connected with each of them in such unique, deep ways! As I scrolled down the list and read the small paragraphs on each country, God reassured me:
“This is the way, walk in it!” “This is the next step. This is the route.”
During the few short weeks after I applied that night, I had 3 phone interviews, lots of time and talking with my parents, and MOUNDS of reassurance from the Lord. When I got the call saying I was on the team, there was no question anymore in my heart- I was going. I said yes. I will be obedient. I will lay aside all fear. I will trust God with my future. With my family. With my friendships.
And I will rest in the greatest comfort, peace, hope, assurance, faith, and joy, that I have felt in a long time! To look back and see all that God had to do in me before sending me out on this trip is awesome. He literally has purpose for everything, Small and Big! And to know that none of my hurt, fear, sadness, confusion, and doubt was experienced in vain? So faith building.
God knew 🙂 The whole time, God had a plan!
Will I doubt again? -yeah.
But what I finally am seeing more than ever is that God’s grace extends! Like it REACHES out to you and I in our doubts! He has a plan so that we don’t have to!
I want to encourage everyone to walk in the faith of knowing that no matter how gray the road ahead looks, God is all up in it. He already has a perfect road up ahead for you! So let’s enjoy the ride, and trust that GOD IS FAITHFUL! He won’t leave you hopeless and alone- He never has and never will!
This will be my blog for this journey– please be praying for me now as I start raising support money, and keep up with the process on here!
