Dear supporters, family, friends, and blog readers,
I want to share with you my heart in this blog and how you can pray for me while I am on this journey. As you know I have six months to go. I love the world race and I love being a missionary and I am thankful for this opportunity and I wouldn’t change my life in a heartbeat. To serve the Lord is a great honor. The honest truth though is, I am physically and spiritually tired.
Physically
For the past three months I have been sick in some way. In Cambodia I had the flu, Thailand I had a cold and I lost my voice, and now in Kenya I am sick again with a cold.Please pray for healing and that the Lord will restore my body.
Spiritually
My moments with the Lord are rare to find. Being a missionary is wonderful but we have long ministry days and you give a lot of your time, affection, and heart away. Lately, I have been reading my bible in the mornings before I head out for ministry and I notice that this is helping me to stay in the word. What I am missing though is times of revelations and deliverance. I miss my times with the Lord when I just soak in His presence. I crave His touch; I crave to hear His voice once again.
One of my squad mates had a vision of me worshiping the Lord in His throne room. This encouraged me because I forgot what throne room worship looked like, to abandon everything and dance in the radiance of the Son. I love Psalm 100 when it says; “enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise.� We have complete access to God. We don’t have to dance before the veil anymore. The veil has been torn in two; we can enter anytime and anywhere. Please pray that I will have throne room moments with the Lord.
Other areas you can pray for me in is that I am learning to love myself. I had no idea that this was area I was struggling in, until someone I didn’t know told me in the Philippines. I know I come off as a confident person but there are times I look at myself and don’t understand why would others want to love me. My challenge this month is to find things I love about myself and write it down and share with my teammates what I have learned. Please pray that this will sink in. I want to be confident in the Lord and not by flesh and I want to love myself because if I don’t how can I really love others?
So if you can keep things in your prayers, I would really appreciate it. Thank you!
Love in Christ
Kerry
