God has recently been reviving my prayer life-and when I say revival I’m talking the whole shebang; crying, dancing, singing, passion, truth, honesty, rawness. God is present, He is real, and He pursues relentlessly! We are so incredibly blessed to have the God that we do. He is endlessly creative, loving, and full of grace. As I’m coming to know the character of our amazing God more I’ve realized that I am “beautifully in over my head.” (Bethel Music) Day in and day out God shows me that He is present and if I have a willing heart, He will use me.
I try to do a devotional everyday and walk through Scripture. When I spend this time with God I tend to write a lot, I find a lot of peace in it. During one of my recent devotionals I was struggling to communicate with God about exactly what I needed and He gave me the words to this poem:
When I
When I feel the grip of a thousand memories, tugging at my mind
Replace them with your hands of purpose
When I hear the ringing echoes of all of my desires, laughing through time
Replace them with Your quiet voice
When the whirlwinds inside of me are howling and pulling at reality
Settle my spirit within me
When my heart is aching to be held by hands that I can feel
Wrap me in the love of your promises
When my trust is as shaky as our fallen world
Instill within me the strength I need
And when my needs seem to outnumber my hours
When my desire is too empowered
When my faith is cracked and broken
And when my voice refuses to be spoken
Love me God,
And replace me with You.
This poem has become an integral part of my prayer life. At the moments in which I feel the most uncertain or exhausted, God brings these words that He gave me back to my mind. Everyday He is replacing me bit by bit with Him. Sometimes it’s a painful process but the joy I have been able to experience in this last month has been unparalleled. God is so present in my everyday life, He is listening intently to my conversations with peers and bringing scripture to mind at opportune moments. He is revitilizing my soul and giving me a fresh perspective on what day to day communication with Him looks like. He is giving me His ultimate comfort and direction in the midst of my human fears of what the future will look like. Our God is everything, he pursues us so perfectly.
Also as I’ve been praying and worshipping recently, I’ve found myself listening to “Over My Head” by Bethel Music.
“Would You come and tear down the boxes that I have tried to put You in
Let love teach me who You are again
Would you take me back to the place where my heart was only about You
And all I wanted was just to be with You
Come and do whatever You want to”
God, I pray this over everyone who has a heart after yours. I pray that You would continue to move in these communities and that you would reveal yourself to us as we come and knock on the door of Your Presence. You love so perfectly God, You are the God of all providence, all guidance, and all wisdom. Thank you for your endless grace. Amen.
I am so incredibly excited for this missions opportunity and the mission experiences I have currently in my community! Fundraising for this incredible trip is now at $6,260!! My goal is still $15,800 and God is still providing for every step of this journey. Just a reminder, I am still selling t-shirts for $20 and would love for you to join me in support! Thank you again for all of your prayers, they strengthen me everyday. Our God is good, and He is on the move. I can’t wait to see what He does next!
