My heart is ablaze with the hope that God will use me, that He will bless me with His direction and passion and goals. In this way I believe that our hearts can align, for is the Creator of the Universe not goal oriented, not meticulously committed to achieving the divinely perfect harmony of humanities consistency with His love? And it’s at this thought that I falter. To perceive, in retrospect, that the Lord is a God of checklists, box-thinking, and general permission of common action is ludicrous. Instead, I am stirred to believe that the God I serve is a wild, untamed manifestation of pure love that takes tangible existence in the messiest, most profound, unorthodox methods. And thus we are saved through Jesus Christ. The Lord that I, that we as the body believe as the Church of Christ, has called us to embrace the untamed wilderness of humanities heart, to set it ablaze with love, in union and reflection of the Lord’s will. To essentially be sheep among wolves, bowing humbly to the sovereignty of life with no designated course apart from blatant obedience, willingness of surrendered youth, and consistent determination to empower those in the Spirit. And so I come to the conclusion that the most vibrant life that I could deem to grasp is encountered through the divine plan of God working through the unashamedly messy core of our world, sharing grace of the deepest depths in order to result in the unwavering motivation of acting in the spirit of love, in effect being the body of Christ. I cannot presume to do this in my own strength, instead I bend to the hand of the Creator, as we all must in time, to embrace with full vigor and dependency the life set unplanned in front of me as I rest in His will.
I sat down on my bed tonight, wrestling with ideas and theologies of the Lord’s sovereign hand. Within a few moments my hand was flying across my journal, sprawling out this message in messy cursive. I believe that this is truly a letter from God in an effort to minister to my heart and hopefully yours as well. I hope that the truth of the Lord’s spirit and his divine love and grace ring true to you throughout the duration of your life. May God’s spirit continue to be with you, and may you seek his blessings and His will in accordance.
