I honestly couldn’t tell you the amount of times that I have attempted or even started to write this blog. i seem to always end up unsatisfied with the result and scrap it, or worse it gets deleted off my phone. So be warned this is what I’ve come up with…
So training camp was… there are literally so many words. With around 300 young adults there was going to be chaos no matter what. But now ad in sleeping in tents, taking ticket showers, the apparently luxurious porter potties, and bugs EVERYWHERE it was pretty crazy. But it was incredible none the less. I met the most wonderful God loving group who I’m going to be journeying the next 9 months with. And my team, the 7 other girls who will be with me, we would probably never come together on our own but now we’re a beautiful mosaic (lol our team name). I met God in ways I never have before. I had some really awesome food that was provided by our serve team- who went out of their way to get to know us not just feed us and pick up after us. I encountered a sense of community I thought I would never find outside of Artios, my small christian homeschool group.
But it was also hard. There were times i felt disconnected. there were moments when all I could think of is “what if I don’t make it?”. There was the the unsettled feelings after 3 of our squad went home in the span of 2 days. Or when we wondered ‘what was happening was she going to be ok’ when we saw an ambulance. And the fitness test… and the fact that they waited a few hours to tell us if we passed it. Realizing how much i was going to mis my family and what happens if my mom isn’t “just a phone call away?”. So yeah it was hard.
But I wouldn’t change it.
And now I’m back home. I’m feeling a little lost and the fear of not making the fundraising goal is so much stronger now that I’ve had the small taste of whats to come. I have almost $6,000 to go that has to be reached before launch….IN ONE MONTH! But hey God is good and he provides. Amen
P.S. theres more ramble coming but I don’t think I can fit it one blog
