I do not blog as much as I probably should but I find myself only feeling the need to do so when my heart is particularly heavy on an issue. I called this blog Calling Out to Yahweh because I feel like since I have been accepted to the World Race, I’ve really had to give myself to God completely and put 100% of my trust in him. It has made me vulnerable and at first it was a scary feeling to just relax and believe that God’s going to take care of it. The first month has been really stressful for me. I find I am my biggest opposition and the hardest on myself. I catch thoughts of “How in the world can I come up with $15,000?!” or “Why would someone invest in my missions?” I know the enemy understands my weaknesses but my strengths as well. I have a heart cry to reach God’s people and the enemy will do whatever it takes to make sure I don’t fulfill God’s Will for my life. I feel like I am in a battle of whether or not I can pull this off but what it really comes down to is God is in control. This opportunity has made me rely on God so much that I am constantly calling out to Yahweh for guidance, faith, and wisdom. I think back on the all instances that I was need, all the prayers in my prayer journals over the last five years, every tear and every praise. God has never failed me. Ever. He never once went missing when I was hurting or absent when I felt alone. He has given me hope in my future and vision to see what I am capable of through him. A song lyric goes I’m caught up in Your grace like an avalanche and that couldn’t be more true. My heart is overwhelmed with peace.
