I've got to be honest…
I cheated on my girlfriend.
It's true.
I did the unspeakable.
I fell in love with another girl.
Gulp.
Oops.
I'm sorry.
I should probably pack my bags now.
You see, I don't want to live without this girl ever again.
I want to take her with me on the rest of my adventures and journeys.
It's her smile.
It's her cute laugh.
It's the way she makes me feel when she wraps her hand around mine and doesn't let go.
It's the way she causes me to light up every time she comes into the room.
It's the way she plays with my beard and gives me sloppy wet kisses.
It's the way she looks me in the eyes and melts my heart.
It's true.
I fell in love with another girl.
"It's the way she plays with my beard and gives me sloppy wet kisses."
All two feet, 20 something pounds of her.
Wait.
What?
Yup.
She's pretty tiny.
And pretty young too.
But man…
…does she have my heart wrapped around her little fingers.
I find myself wanting to see her walk through the door each morning before I leave for ministry so I can give her the biggest kiss ever.
I find myself wanting to play with her and her dolls.
I find myself wanting to hold her when she's crying for no reason at all.
I find myself wanting to rock her to sleep and whisper truths to her.
I find myself wanting to see her grow up and be the princess she already is in my eyes.
"It's the way she makes me feel when she wraps her hand around mine and doesn't let go."
Because of her, I'm learning more about His love for His children.
Because of her, I'm learning what it takes to be a dad.
Because of her, I'm seeing that even the smallest of creations can make the biggest impact.
Because of her, I'm learning how to love my girlfriend better.
Because of her, I'm learning how to love you better.
I've worked on patience.
I've worked on selfishness.
I've worked on listening.
I've worked on being gentle.
I've worked on being an encourager.
Because of her, I've worked on being more like Jesus.
"Because of her, I'm seeing that even the smallest of creations can make the biggest impact."
And at the end of the day, that's always the goal. Right?
It's my dream.
It's my dream for both of the women in my life to see Him through me.
It's my dream for both of them to know that more than loving me, I want them to love Him.
It's my dream to lead both to a deeper relationship with Jesus.
From the second we met, I fell in love with this new girl.
I let her take up residence right next to my girlfriend in my heart.
And the best part?
I was supposed to fall in love with her.
It was the only way to grow closer to Jesus.
So yeah…
Maybe I didn't really “cheat” on my girlfriend.
But I did fall in love.
And I, or my sweet girlfriend, would have it any other way.
Zambia has been amazing. With four days left in this incredible country, I'm honestly sad to be leaving the people and the ministry my group has been lucky enough to be partnered up with. To you reading, know that all the prayers and support you have offered up are being felt and making a difference. The impact the kids have made has been nothing short of amazing and it has been a blessing to see what Jesus is doing in and through each of them. Thank you to all!
