You may or may not know, but I am heading out on the World Race again for three months as a Team Lead. What does this mean you may be asking, well I am heading out with a new squad (V Squad) for the first three months of their 11 month journey. I will be living and doing life with one team for three months to love them fiercely, help guide and get them used to being on the race.
I am currently in Gainesville, Georgia with the whole squad at Training Camp. This is where the whole squad comes together for the first time to receive training and meet each other for 10 days. We are on day nine and it’s been going so well.
I will be going to Nicaragua, Costa Rica and Panama. What is so cool with this squad, is that we leave straight from training camp to Nicaragua on June 15th. I am so excited but also a little exhausted at this moment.
I am excited to go out because I know as a leader, God is calling me to rely and depend on Him even more. I know there will be times I doubt myself, when I don’t know what to say or what to do and get angry and say things I don’t mean. But thank goodness for God and His mercies and the unending grace and forgiveness He is continuing to teach and pour upon me.
I came to Training Camp holding a lot of shame and burdens that I have been able to drop and walk in the freedom and forgiveness our Heavenly Father so freely and longs to give. I have seen and experienced God in new and more intimate ways and have been starting to walk out more in the confidence, authority and leadership He has called me to. I feel that God is calling out more of the leader in me, telling me it’s time to step out.
While we were in worship today, I got this picture of Jesus walking on water from Matthew 14:24-33(TPT)
“But the disciples, who were now in the middle of the lake, ran into trouble, for their boat was tossed about by the high winds and heavy seas. At about four o’clock in the morning, Jesus came to them, walking on the waves! When the disciples saw him walking on top of the water, they were terrified and screamed, ‘A ghost!'” Then Jesus said, ‘Be brave and don’t be afraid. I am here!’ Peter shouted out, ‘Lord, if it’s really you, then have me join you on the water!’ ‘Come and join me,’ Jesus replied. So Peter stepped out onto the water and began to walk toward Jesus. But when he realized how high the waves were, he became frightened and started to sink. ‘Save me Lord!’ he cried out. Jesus immediately stretched out his hand and lifted him up and said, ‘What little faith you have! Why would you let doubt win?’ And the very moment they both stepped into the boat, the raging wind ceased. Then all the disciples crouched down before him and worshiped Jesus. They said in adoration, ‘You are truly the Son of God!'”
But instead of Peter, it was me. I called out to God and He said, “Come and join me.” Not only were we on the water but then He took me to other parts of the world and started saying all that He wanted to show and give me. Then I was back in the boat with one leg outside of the boat and the other on the inside with Him standing in the water waiting for me. I was confused so I asked, “How did I get back here, Lord what is stopping me from doing all the things you just showed me?” He replied, “You.”
I am the one that has been calling out to God but also holding back. I have been afraid of what I know what He wants and longs to give me. I have been holding back from becoming the person He created me to be. BUT NO MORE. I know my life is so much more abundantly better because of Jesus and what He did for me.
So for the next three months, and the rest of my life, I am going to be so fixed on Jesus that even when things come at me it won’t change my focus on Jesus. I will continue to bring all my burdens, shame, guilt, questions, lack and allow Him to fill me with His love. I will walk on the waters because that is what He has been calling me to do. I will continue to grow into the woman He created me to be. And man oh man am I so excited. I have this groundedness that I have never had before. My perspective has been altered to see God way more than anything else. It’s like looking at something with a microscope compared to an arial view. God sees my sin as an arial view. He doesn’t see it or care because His son already paid for my sin, mistakes and anything else I could ever do. I have been given the opportunity to live a life free of guilt, condemnation, shame, hatred, death, bitterness, anger and I gladly accept.
Last year was amazing, but I am so excited to go to new depths and heights with Jesus this year!
Please pray for myself and my new team as we head into these next three months. I have already been blown away from their eagerness to learn, experience new depths, the vulnerability and love they have for God and each other. It is already so amazing, I can’t wait to see what God does next! I pray that we continue to dive to new depths of God’s love to accept and allow it to fill us and then to have the overflow just drench each person we come into contact with.
I am in the process of raising funds for this trip, please pray and if you feel that you want to partner with me in this there is a donate button on the top of this page. All proceeds from that button go to my trip and all donations are tax deductible.
