Sucks So Good.
One of my mottos for the year.
We left Haiti on February 14 and to say it was hard would be an understatement. I had grown so close to so many I felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest every time I had to say goodbye, explaining to each kid and person I had grown close with that I am leaving. And no I don’t know when I’ll be back to Haiti. Every goodbye got harder and harder to say. Haiti so quickly felt like home. I grew so close to so many, my team and I helped make a house a home and met so many amazing people.
I considered myself honored and so lucky to have been able to be so involved with so many amazing organizations that are working in and with the community. I met so many amazing people doing what the Lord has called them to do and just abundantly pouring out God’s love and light.
So my motto for the year is sucks so good.
Things that are hard or bad can really turn out to be good. Does it feel good to have to part from people that felt like family so quickly? No. But it is so wonderful I was able to find people to love so thoroughly and wholly that is was awful to say goodbye? Yes.
I am looking to have it that hard to say goodbye every month because it means that i was able to make such good connections and get to know the heart of so many people.
As i type this I am so sore from working out and running daily on my Race. I have the opportunity to be working out with two collegiate athletes: one in track and the other in basketball. The workouts and runs suck at the time but are so good for me. And I feel so much better! I can run farther and faster, am able to do more, build up endurance and push myself more with each workout.
Every morning God has been waking me up between 4:30 and 5:15 am to spend quality intentional time with Him. Also because He knows I need some alone time without anyone else around. While everyone else is sound asleep, I go out to my chair and snuggle up with Chiquito (the dog that lives at the place we are staying) and just worship God. I have watched the sun come up over the beautiful mountainous landscape and it is breathtaking. At first I will be honest and say I just wanted to go back to bed but as I’ve gotten use to it I actually look forward to that time, waking up early and starting off my morning right.
I am able to love, laugh, cry, listen, worship, seek God and so much more with so many that it blows my mind I still even get to do this! Is this even real life? Some of my goals for the year are to be comfortable in the uncomfortable. I want to love more, be bolder, walk in more freedom, laugh more and louder, cry heart wrenching tears, walk along and support others in their most desperate time, see the sick healed and see so many come to Jesus.
I have already experienced and seen so much and can’t imagine the lowest of lows and highest of highs that I will experience this year. I will see and experience things I’ll never been able to explain fully. This year is going to be so hard but through that so good. Not only do i get to travel the world, share the love of Jesus, work along side wonderful organizations that do amazing things in each community but also get to experience each culture and people. I get to listen to people, love them fully and walk along side them in their life for a short while.
So this year is going to suck but in the best way possible.
(Pictures to come later.)
