I Really Do Love Jesus
I wouldn’t still be here if I didn’t. I realized that during a mountain hike in Brasov, Romania where we were having a conference and our Romania debrief. I cannot complain that I have been given this amazing opportunity to travel around the world, serve God and serve people, but the simple fact of this is that it is not easy.
It isn’t easy to sleep on an inch-thick mattress inside a small tent every night, It isn’t easy to take a 5 minute shower when you really need at least 12 to get fully clean. It isn’t easy to hang out with 6 strangers every waking moment and pretend like they are your instant best friends. It isn’t easy to go to the store and have to guess what is inside the package because you don’t read Bulgarian. It isn’t easy to travel for 36-67 hours at a time to get to your next destination and then not even have a guarantee of a place to stay when you get there. It isn’t easy to eat on $3.75/day (especially in European countries) and have a place to stay for $5/night. It isn’t easy to leave your best friend in America and want nothing more than to sit across the table from her and just talk, but knowing that you cannot do that for another 9 months. It isn’t easy to live out of a backpack for 11 months. It isn’t easy to not always have a flushing toilet. It isn’t easy to tell someone that Jesus loves them and have them reject that.
It isn’t easy to have FAITH that God knows what’s best for you and is molding you into the person He wants you to be. None of this is easy. But the difficulty is what makes it so amazing. I climbed this mountain in Brasov and the further I went up, the harder it was to keep putting one foot in front of the other, but the view also got exponentially better than I could have even imagined from the bottom.
