His love is why I believe, and I keep waiting for that to change or be added to, for my faith to become more solid by learning more theology, learning about speaking in tongues and trying to have enough faith to heal by the power of Jesus, learning more profound lessons that will, once and for all, make me the Christian He meant for me to be.
But I keep finding myself in a state of mind that is just desperate for rest and comfort, dreading another lesson in theology or another Bible study that will make me feel inadequate or even a group prayer that seems insincere. Then I remember that Jesus loves me. He loves me when I don’t feel like opening my Bible. Jesus loves me when I make the wrong decision. Jesus loves me when I break my promises to Him. He loves me when I desire to talk to him AND when I’m silent before Him. He loves me when I forget to pray or don’t want to go to church. Jesus loves me when I tell others about Him and when I’m afraid to share my faith. Jesus loved me long before I loved Him and that is why I believe.
The way He loves us is unlike any love we can comprehend. His love is defined by a relentless pursuit and grace. His love is not earned and isn’t even dependent on your belief in Him. It’s a love I wake up every morning asking God to help me show to the world, to my family and my friends.
So the more I seek to find a new key to my faith, the more I realize that it’s been in my pocket the whole time. The key is His love.
The two most important commandments are (Luke 10:27) “You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your strength, and all your mind. And, Love your neighbor as yourself.”
And 1 Corinthians 13: 1-3 says “If I could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but didn’t love others, I would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of God’s secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing. If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it, but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing.”
