(Disclaimer: I wrote this right before I went to Gorkha, so that’s why it’s in present tense)
Well, let me clarify. We didn’t really have any wifi at all for the whole month. Gresom’s house had wifi, but it didn’t really work for my phone most of the time, so we got it once in a blue moon MAYBE. So every meal we’d head there hoping the wifi would work and heaving sighs when it expectedly didn’t. We were fine with having no wifi, but it created in us an odd attitude.
The thing is, because we were all constantly hoping for the wifi to work, we didn’t really focus on choosing time with each other. But once we were in Gorkha up in the mountains, we knew unequivocally that wifi was not going to be an option.
Honestly? I was nervous. Being an introvert, it was super easy for me to retreat into my phone, and having wifi for distractions and keeping up with everything back home was not something I wanted to lose. Even though the wifi never worked, I was always focused on thoughts of: “Okay, next meal maybe I’ll be able to log on” and it distracted me during the day as I wondered if the wifi would work that night.
So I wasn’t psyched about losing all hope of connection in the mountains. But God told me something before I left. He told me that I was where He put me for a reason, and that I didn’t come here to be constantly looking toward home, but to be constantly looking toward Him.
Going into Gorkha I’m filled with hesitant and nervous obedience. God was going to take away my ability to retreat so that I could focus more completely on Him. And while that thought was scary, I’m excited to be in a place that I can only look at the Lord, because there’s nothing else to take my eyes off of Him. He’s invited me to a calm lake to walk across the water to be with Him. He’s blessed me with the eye of the Storm. Like Peter, He’s calling me to walk with Him and ignore the distractions around me. Gracious as He is, He’s made it even easier for me.
So emotionally, I’m nervous but excited.
On the World Race, what else is new?
