Sitting at starbucks today and just decided to write Papa a little something. It's a little scattered but I've only been home two weeks so that's life right now 🙂
Hey Abba,
It's been a while. Lately, I've forgotten that you're here. Actually, lately I've forgotten a lot. I just got out of a whirlwind only to find my self yet again in another. Same but different. I need You here the same, but different. I have to tell myself over and over and over that I am not the one in control. Daddy, it's You. All-knowing and all-powerful.
I forget that anything that happens You have a way to work it out for the better. I forget that Your paths are peace and when I don't feel that then it's not the wise route to take. I realize more and more everyday that without You I can do nothing. Apart from You I am nothing. You've shown me this year that I am not the main character of my life. It's You, again. So, Papa let all that I am and all that I do bring glory to Your name and not my own. If I sing let me sing for you. If I dance let me dance for You. If I shine let me shine for You. Life at times makes us forget what's really important. Comparison to others shows us how we are to live as Christians rather than the words You have spoken. Teach us to compare ourselves to Your word and not to humans. Teach this world to love so big and so hard. It starts here and now. Not when we are in a different season not when things get easier. It's time to be what we want to be now and Abba what I want to be is crazy and madly in love with You and I want that love for You to make others crazy and madly in love with You.
You are always good. In confusion, in hurt, in rollercoasters, in any mess it will never take away Your goodness. Even in whirwinds! I'm thankful I serve a God that never changes. You are big. And I love you.
Your fave,
Kendall
