Being Romanced by God. For many of you this might not seem like a weird concept to grasp but for me it has been a huge stuggle for me, more than I even realized until it was brought to my attention. I can believe that God loves me because he is my Father and He created me, but I have a really hard time believing that he is IN LOVE with me. The last few weeks I have been really thinking about how God wants to romance me and be my persuer. This morning I was reading in his word about the different ways he loves me and the extent to which he is IN LOVE with me. I am going to share with you what I wrote in my journal today because it is the only way to explain how I am feeling and where I am at, even though it makes me nervous to put my inner most thoughts out there.
God I think back to when I was in love with him…I will never forget the butterflies I had when I first saw him and when I was in his presence…I still remember how excited I got whenever I opened my front door and he was standing there…or how excited I got when he said “Kendall I am in love with you”…I still remember the way he once looked at me and I could just feel how much he loved me…why though is it so easy to feel that kind of love, earthly love, and believe it is real?…but I have such a hard time grasping that you love me a billion times more and that the best part is you will never ever take the love you have from me away…you are always and forever going to be in love with me…OH HOW YOU LOVE ME…he took his love away from me and left me hurt, sad, and crushed and left me scared to fall in love again…but falling in LOVE with YOU shouldn’t be scary for me because you will NEVER hurt me or leave me…YOU will never take your LOVE away from me…God I want to experience your love for me in HUGE ways I want to experience an everlasting love romance with YOU…an unfailing love with YOU…an EPIC romance with YOU…I want my stomach to have butterflies each time I am in Your presence…I want to have a huge smile on my face everytime I think of how much You are IN LOVE with me…I want to be silent so that I can hear you daily say…
” KENDALL I AM SO IN LOVE WITH YOU AND ALWAYS WILL BE FOREVER AND EVER”
