Two weeks ago today I found out my Dad passed away. I have since been back to the U.S. to be with my family to grieve this loss, and gain closure from the shock. I have experienced a spectrum of emotion in this time, but right now I hold to the peace, joy, and strength that comes from the Lord.
I wont say I have it all figured out, I am still processing all that has occurred in these two weeks, but I can say that God is still good. I can see His hand and His work through this time of tragedy. God did not cause this, or want for this to happen, but his goodness has shown through the darkness surrounding my Dad’s death so bright that it’s unmistakable. There is already so many good things that have come out of it, so many in fact that I cannot list them all. So I choose to praise him through this pain.
I have four younger brothers, and a younger sister that is 3 months old. God has not abandoned them, or my stepmom, they are all so surrounded by love and support of community, I know they will come out of this. This community is just one of the things that I am thankful for when it comes to the list of good things that have come out of my Dad’s death. I thank God for his provision for my family.
I lack words when it comes to explaining where I am at, other than this. So, I have taken to painting when my emotions are overwhelming and I have no other way to express them.
I am living in Psalms 23 in these days. I am resting in His goodness, resting in my identity as a daughter of the King.
