I am grieving. For the past month and a half grief has looked like a complete lack of motivation. I struggle to be motivated to do anything. Getting out of my own head is the battle. I tell myself “you will get up at 6am, you will eat breakfast, you will go to ministry at this time, and leave ministry at this time”. I can go through the motions. It’s when I sit down, and attempt to write my thoughts, or even put them together in my head, that I get completely overwhelmed. Even writing a text message can be too much sometimes. So what happens is I end up not blogging, or journaling, or contacting friends and family.
My thoughts are like a record spinning around and around, stuck on the same track. I find myself lost in thought, with nothing as evidence to prove my process.
All this to say: I don’t want to share, but I will try.
We just experienced team changes, so I am now with a new team of people. With this new team I am already experiencing community as I am being held accountable to blog. I know this will be healthy for me, so I will press in despite having no current motivation.
Thank you for your continued prayer and support.
