Greater than emotions are callings, but callings without emotion is empty motions with religious context. Calling must be joined to emotion, this is what remains with those around you is the passion in your voice, and the visible cry of your heart. Love, it’s an emotion, an adjective, and a verb. Love requires action, this is calling, when your moved deep in your soul to act, affecting change.
Greater than all this depth is the Holy Spirit that prompts our emotions, to call us to a purpose.
I consider it a privilege to hurt so deeply, and be able to bring an offering of praise to the Father’s feet. As we are here on earth there is great pain, but this is only a short time of our existence, for in heaven there will be no sorrow. (Rev 21:4) So while I’m here on earth I will choose to praise Him through the pain, understanding that in sorrow He is still the same God I knew before. There is great, blessing when we choose to give God praise in the hard places.
He is comforter, so I choose to allow myself to feel (hurt) and lean into him so that I can know him as comforter. A wise woman at training camp told me that I need to allow myself to grieve. I had no idea what that meant at the time, but now I understand that I must learn to do this in a healthy way.
Something that I was completely unaware of about the Race was the amount of goodbyes I will be saying all year. Of course I realized I would have to say goodbye to my family, but I now realize this will be a year of building relationships, and saying goodbye over and over. This is so hard to think about. I just said goodbye to people that in the past month I have become incredibly close to. I do grieve leaving this place, and the people I have become close to. This is so hard, but I wouldn’t have it any other way, because this is just evidence that I have made real, lasting relationships here. My family has expanded.
