I haven’t grown since 7th grade so if you came to this blog wondering how tall I am well, I’m still 5’4 & a half. I’m talking about the good stuff here. I’m talking about spiritual growth.
I decided on the title because while I came on the race hoping to grow in my spiritual life every day, that hasn’t really been the case. In fact, for a lot of this past month I’ve been afraid of growth. I’ve run from growth. I’ve hid from growth. And if we’re being honest, I completely rejected growth. A good friend of mine, one I’ve been honored to do everyday life with for the past month has been drilling into me words from the Lord even when I didn’t want to hear them. This month has been really hard. This month I was wrestling with college decisions (am I even going? who knows), family health problems, loss of a friend, and stresses here just in everyday life. Life has been anything but easy. And while this is a perfect season to seek growth I hid. I picture this month like me being a caterpillar, I was ready to wrap up into my cocoon but I was NOT ready to break out and become what God has created me to be. Instead, I spent this month falling into safe habits because, lets be honest, when we’re wrapped up in the cocoon, its safe.
My cocoon had A/C, such a simple pleasure but one I never took a moment to thank God for. My cocoon had food that I actually like, a joy washed over me but I still never thanked God. My cocoon had incredible team times, my team chooses each other and loves to live life with each other but yet, I’ve never thanked God (especially for the joy this ALL GIRL team brings me). So here I am going into month 4 feeling as though I should’ve broken from my cocoon but I let the devil slip in, I got comfortable and lost my gratitude for the Lord’s provision.
Now, after quite the long intro, I have decided to start breaking free. The Lord created me beautiful. He wants me to break free of my safeties. He wants to watch me fly. He wrote my story and said “that one, she’s more than enough” “that one, she’s poetry” “that one, she is mine”. I am done hiding in my cocoon, I am done refusing to break out, I am done hindering my growth. It’s a slow process but the Lord is breaking my cocoon piece by piece and asking me to grow an inch every single new day. I’m no longer a caterpillar waiting for my moment. I am becoming the beautiful butterfly who grew her wings and the Lord allowed her to fly.
Here’s my question to you. Are you willing to break your cocoon and walk in the growth the Lord is calling you to? Are you allowing the Lord to tear off piece by piece trusting He created you for more?
ALSO – I’m FULLY FUNDED so shoutout to the good man upstairs :’) and thank you to everyone who continually supported me!!! Thanks for taking the time to read this blog!!! Stay tuned for the next one!!!
