Living in a relationship with God is rewarding, fulfilling and amazing beyond description ,but one thing many fail to mention is this: it is hard. It isn’t easy to forgive those who have hurt you, or love not only the victim but also find room to love the perpetrator as well.
It is easy to find room in your heart to love a child with aids or someone starved to their very bones. It is heart-wrenching to see suffering ,especially first hand. A call to action pulls at my core to show the love of God to those who have never recognized it before. I noticed something in myself this week though….am I doing that here at home? Am I showing God’s love to my family as much as I crave to do it elsewhere?
This past week I traveled to FL to visit my family with my little sister and her best friend. It is an eleven hour drive from my hometown in TN to Ocala, FL. It didn’t take long for my nerves to begin to get streched as the miles increased. Soon the simple chewing of a cracker was a rake to my brain and the practice of patience became very real in that few feet of space I was contained in. It may seem very silly to some, and in reality it is but nonetheless I found it very hard.
It is so easy to be frustrated with myself at these moments in time. Why is it I can ride in a bus for days on end without a moment of frustration ,but a few hours in a car with my family and I feel like I will explode at any moment? Why does my ugly side show the easiest to the people I love the most?
I know we are human and there are many variables to this scenario ,but it is something on my heart I am praying about and would like to grow in if you would join me in prayer.
I may have had a few bad moments ,but the good ones far outnumbered them this week. I spent time with my two three-year old cousins and got to be a part of their lives for a while. I had a two hour talk with my great-grandmother and she shared advice with me that is irreplaceable. I swam in the ocean, saw a show and got to share with my dad what is going on in my life right now. ……and I saw USA play Nigeria in Jacksonville!!! Lets just say I had an amazing week. God truly blessed me and is growing my faith each moment. 🙂
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