I become so accustomed to comfort so easily. I get settled where I am and don’t ask for more. “Eh, I don’t need more money,” I say. “I have my necessities.” It sounds great on the outside ,but the reality is I don’t want to push for more out of life. I am comfortable with the friends I have. Comfortable with the job I have and my worst fear is I will become comfortable with my desire for God.
Comfortability is a problem I come across often. It is a major reason why I am on The World Race. I don’t want that. I want more.
Whenever I have a major revelation of where I am at ,who I am, and who God is I am usually driving in my car. I see something in the world that is broken and realize how broken and used this world has been. I also feel the innate desire that I am meant to be a part of changing it.
Being so comfortable for me is not ok. Once my desires feel satisfied I have stopped thirsting for God ,and He always has more to give.
“Then he said to the crowd, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross daily, and follow me.”– Luke 9:23
“The young lions suffer want and hunger; but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.”-Psalms 34:10
“One thing I have desired of the Lord,?That will I seek:?That I may dwell in the house of the Lord?All the days of my life,?To behold the beauty of the Lord,?And to inquire in His temple.” -Psalms 27:4
“Take delight in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart”-Psalms 37:4
I have been in a spiritually dry place. Yes, I know that it is impossible to be a spiritually dry missionary. Unfortunately that is not the case. I have been doing quiet time every day reading my bible and praying. I have been reading good books about God and Spiritual things. I have been praying and even writing songs to God. Yet I was overwhelmed with the realization yesterday that I still feel dry.
Then it hit me.
I had to ask myself the question, “Am I truly seeking God?” I want to, and I had all the outward activities to prove myself, but where was my heart? Was I merely open to God or seeking Him fully with my whole being?
We all have dry spells and that is totally ok. But what do we do with them?
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.- Mathew 7:7
This year I left a lot behind. I am not without by any means. This month I even have such lovely accommodations as a washing machine and a drier. That is a big deal during rainy season guys ,let me just tell you.
When I left my car behind I lost my own personal sanctuary to God. I lost the place I can cry out to God at the top of my lungs and no one can hear me. I lost the place I cry and the place I can use to just get away when I need a break from life and re-center.
It is time to create a new sanctuary for myself. One that goes everywhere. My heart.
Here is a throwback for you:
