Hey I’m sorry for ever making anyone feel unwanted, rejected or hated. I never meant to step on anyone playing jokes, y’all know I gots jokes. My jokes were and always will be merely jokes. You know that I love you. Have you not ever known me? Before or after I was a jack-ass all those years? Still to this date my tongue slips and I wouldn’t ever want to offend you. and say I do? Say I really stick my foot in my mouth and there’s no coming back from this one. I’ve really done it. I crossed a boundary line. An imaginary little line there drawn in the sand Hey!! We’re not gonna bring this one up. You’re not allowed to freely express what you really feelright now not during such a sensitive time in history, not right now. Isn’t this the same battle, are we not all fighting the same fight? Love. Do my desires not fill my heart? And do yours not? Assume I’m not perfect. All I really want to feel is what you feel Jesus.and say that’s not easy… So I slip so I say things I shouldn’t and for that I am sorry! So we don’t line up so I don’t support what you support or you, I. Am I not allowed to make a stance, speak a little opinion ever now and then, do I now not have a voice? Segregated hated outcasted. Haven’t we all felt this way before? and for what? Standing up for something we believe in? Is this not the foundation of every fight in the history of ever Standing up for what you believe in? When you were fighting for love can you say I wasn’t either? But what I really want to know. Have I ever left you feeling worthless? Did I drain you of the only love you had for yourself? Or is that just how I am, how I’m hard wired, that every encounter I’ve ever had with you or anyone else, your heart wasn’t just as on fire as mine. Did I not love you then? If I was in my mind to feel it or not did I not give you my heart? Did I leave you feeling rejected? Did you hate yourself on my account? And I mean like really hate yourself like those times when you really just hated yourself? Remember how dark and cold, no one around but you and yourself and you just sucked. You couldn’t even breath right you sucked at that too Sheer misery. Remember those times? Is that how you felt? Or maybe those times were the times that I made you feel that way. When I’ve become so numb to it all. Numb to the flags numb to the news numb to religion numb to the media social media. What if everything just feels so numb. What if I’ve spent Countless days and nights working chasing looking seeking, for the next best thing, that one thing that’s gonna be your driving force that one thing you’ve wanted nothing more then to devote your any and all to because you just know, right there deep in the pit of your stomach your hunger and your pain and your thirst, for something greater than YOU! Has been right there all along. Say you find it and Say over time a man becomes numb to that? Just kinda sorta going through the motions taking the necessary steps to keep your head a float. Maybe I just forgot who and what I stand for. Love. Maybe I forgot my own heart. Can’t even tell I’m making people feel like shit. Having maybe even known me in passing over the years. Had you ever known me to be malicious, blood sucking self seeking out for nothing more then my own good? Am I really so cruel? Would you believe me if I told you that I still loved you? Would you believe me if I told you that he loves us more? He loves you and I like nothing we could ever imagine. I am humbled in your presence
