Dear March,
You came in like a lamb, a new beginning. Leaving Romania, we had team changes and I am now with 5 wonderful ladies who love God. I am very thankful to be chosen as part of this team. March started out great; I had great expectations, this month I would choose to love everyone everyday, I would grow in the Word, I would enjoy a ministry of manual labor and teaching English club, I would celebrate a birthday. I celebrated International Women’s Day and being outside in the sunshine.
Oh March, how you were full of surprises. You were cold and cloudy and on some days rainy/snowy/slushy. I was ‘trapped’ unable to walk in/out of the gate where I lived, language was a huge barrier (I can’t even read the alphabet,) and the few times we had liver to eat – ugh those were hard days. I had more bad days than good. I allowed the spiritual and physical darkness over Transnistria to get the better of me.
People even prayed over me that God was calling me closer and I needed to dive in, but no one told me how. I was upset & frustrated because I felt like my relationship was on the surface. However; I never asked for help or guidance.
But I will not stand for that anymore.
March will end with the roar of a lion. I will fight harder to grow closer to God. I will ask for help & guidance. I WILL choose light over darkness, look for the joy in everyday, not let my anxiety get out of control, not let the doubts cloud my mind, and love relentlessly. I will dive into the culture. I will love people. I will love myself.
April and Belize, I’m coming for you. I have a lion within me (& a lion journal to help remind me) and I will not stand for any crap in my life. I am asking you to hold me accountable to dive into the Word and my relationship with God. To make sure I love with all the love Jesus has given to me.
Sincerely,
A March survivor
