I am currently in a season of striving to trust the plans that God has for me after the race. I have thoroughly enjoyed celebrating with my squadmates on many of the opportunities that God has been leading them to after the race, but deep down inside, I thought God was leading me to many of those options too… until He closed the door on all of them.
It honestly feels like a devastating loss. You know the one where your team is up 3 games to 0 in the finals, but ends up losing the next 4 in a best of 7 series.
And in this moment, God has been teaching me about trust. In my head I absolutely trust God, as I’ve seen Him work time and time again in ways I didn’t think possible, and seen good come out of terrible situations. But then He whispered something that’s become a game changer.
“It’s one thing to trust Me. It’s another thing to act upon that trust”.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”
Isaiah 55:8-9 NIV
Talk about some humble pie. I think I know what’s best for my future, I think I know what would best suit me, I think I know where I can make the most impact.
I, I, I… where is HE?
Am I living like His ways are higher? Am I living like His thoughts are greater? Not really, or you wouldn’t be reading this blog 🙂
I want to live in a way where I am acting on my trust in Him. I don’t want to be someone who says I trust You, but doesn’t get out of the boat.
So although I’m not completely sure what I’ll be doing after the race, I trust that He knows what’s in store for me and He’ll reveal it to me when the time is right. I’m going to walk with confidence trusting that He has something amazing planned for me the next day, and the next day, and the next day after that. Trusting one step at a time.
From this lesson, I’m reminded of a bracelet that’s now tied around my wrist. HE>i.
“He must become greater; I must become less.”
John 3:30 NIV
He is leading me towards a life where He becomes greater, and I become less. That’s my goal, leaving people with more of Him, and less of me!
