Do we not sin against God when we refuse to use our God given talents?
I have been really struggling with this….
The past couple of months I have had a different people say to me…”God has said to me that I see great power in you”.
Why does that statement make me cry and want to run!
I spoke to a team mate of mine about it because we both had been having some pretty crazy dreams this month that God was definitely speaking to us and helping us grow each other in His spirit. I told her I was scared. I didn’t understand all of this and I don’t know exactly what God has planned for me, but I think they are right. I do think God put something in me that I have been afraid to let shine. I think he wants to use me in Amazing ways for Him but I have been paralyzed by FEAR. FEAR isn’t of God, fear is of the enemy. This month has taught me so much in allowing God to gently stretch me closer and closer to where He wants me to go. Actually, she shared the dreams and it kinda impacted a few of our team mates. The thing God taught me in that, is that I don’t have to UNDERSTAND everything. I have to be OBEDIENT. I was. God worked out the rest. I have peace with my part. I know that the dreams had something to do with the Holy Spirit and Freedom and consequently I believe they were bringing healing. Which is something my team mate and I have been praying for, so God again has been faithful.
The problem for me is that I have a strong passion for Christ, and a big mouth. Sometimes I get so passionate about things they don’t come out right. He is growing me in this. God and my team mates. They are showing me that I do bring perspective to things that does need to be shared, because God placed those passions and thoughts in me for a PURPOSE. I just need to communicate them so the message gets heard clearly and not clouded by emotions or frustrations. They are being patient with me when I get frustrated with life, and people who don’t see things so apparent to ME. My team is uniquely gifted that they let me express my frustrations and help me see why I need to communicate it. We all have gifts that we bring to life that are unique to us.
I was in the “prayer shack”, a ministry we have this month, and I was asking God “to show me how to make a difference in my world, how to communicate the true passion I have in my heart for you, to be able to encourage others to choose to live for you and serve you, even though I’m not perfect myself”. I’m not joking, He played a song on my Zune I had NEVER heard before, and it really spoke to me. Actually it is what spurred on this blog. The title of the song is “You were Born For This” by Tremolo. Really I don’t even know how the song got on my Zune. So all I can take from that is that, maybe I need to tell others not to waste their gifts. You have a gift that maybe you doubt, or think your “not good enough”, but honestly, God wants me to tell you, YOU ARE! YOU ARE MORE THAN ENOUGH, JUST BE AVAILABLE AND BE PRESENT AND WILLING….HE’LL DO THE REST. He promises us in 2 Cor 12:9… His Grace is sufficient for us, His power is made perfect in weakness…
