“If we don’t trust Him, then what the heck are we here for?”
Wow! God spoke so much to me. I am going to attempt to summarize some of it here…
It seems to me that the basis of our walk as Christians, the starting point of discipleship, must begin with a simple question.
What is the true character of God? Who do you know God to be?
If we can’t answer this… then our world, our calling, our lives… will never make sense. Why did we see starving children in Africa? Why are wives beaten under the religion of Islam? Why did God kill the first born sons of Egypt? Why does my friend suffer from depression? Why does my father have diabetes?
I don’t know… these question are not for me to answer perhaps.
But I know this, God is God. What does that mean to you?
Finally, to me, it means He is Love, I can trust Him, His ways are above mine… Why do all these things happen? I don’t know. I do know, He uses ALL things for the good of those that love Him!
Do you love Him?
I am reminded of Joshua 7… go and read it, it will make you think! I hope! How often are we crying out to God, blaming Him even for the mess the world is in… God do this and do that we pray! I wonder, how much of the state of the world is simply the result of our disobedience! How often is God saying, hey kids, you know the rules of the game, you broke them, you keep breaking them, why are you crying out to me, get up my child, go make right what is wrong, turn you heart back to me. Seek Me and you WILL find me… but here is the key to the line… seek me and you will find me, WHEN you seek me with ALL of your heart!
I love hearing people say, I have said it myself, “I have a problem with this scripture…” think about it. WHAT??? He is God. It is not up to me to analyze HIs word and then decide if I agree with God or not… HE IS GOD!!!
This is His Ball Game, He made the rules, He invited us to play… and here is the cool thing for me, only he knows the score, who is on the winning team and who is on the losing team! Only HE gets to send players to the sin bin (thats the penalty box for all you non rugby fans)…
Why did I have to leave that child with an abusive family, why did the women go home to a drunk husband, why are there children hungry and naked in the street… I dont know the answers, except the only answer that matters, He is God, and I trust Him, His ways are above mine, they are His children He loves them, He loves me, He loves you… and the greatest thing I understand and believe… that the game is NOT OVER YET… we are still here, Christ has not yet come, judgement day is not here this moment….
Are you still reading, whewwww, ok good, yes, judegement day is not here yet, not this moment… but it is coming.
I finally think I have a better understanding of what this season of my life is now about… Knowing the character of God, unmistakably, unshakibly, unconditionally… knowing God, trusting Him, loving Him. It is NOT about learning to be a better leader, it is not about teams or organizations… this is between me and God. Sitting at His feet, lying face down in His throne room… me and God.
Last night I feel God told me, Kelly… I need you to know me, to trust me, before I can send you any further. I feel that soon God is going to raise the bar on my life, call me to a new level of obedience and surrender. But that it wont be painful it wont be a struggle of flesh, it will be a sweet sweet surrender, because I know Him, I love Him, and I will truly give my life to Him. He has placed Ephesians 3:17-19 on my life… The love of Chrsit that SURPASSES KNOWLEDGE!
It does not have to make sense, HE IS GOD!!!
