YUCK! They gross me out. I’ve always been self conscious of pit stains.
Worship. YUM! It pumps me up. I’m experiencing a new freedom to worship Jesus.
After worship this morning I had something on my heart to share with the squad, but was embarrassed by my giant pit stains. I was self conscious and didn’t want to stand in front of the squad knowing my armpits were sweaty. God told me to do it anway. I’m learning how to obey when God speaks.
I stood up and vulnerably explained my hesitation to share. I then said, “I know that I can speak in front of you all with huge pit stains and you’ll receive my words with grace. And I know that when God looks at me He doesn’t think that I’m gross. He delights in me.” I then proceeded to share what God had laid on my heart.
The Holy Spirit is present here, and He is awakening my voice. I’ve experienced more freedom to worhsip Him and cry out in my weakness. I’m releasing the fear of man and shouted today, “I’m not afraid!” many times over.
I almost let insecurity plague me this morning. I almost let it steal my voice. But that is not what God had for me. He pushed me through and didn’t let me give in to silence. Insecurity bares its teeth when I am not owning my true identity in Christ. Because I am confident of who I am in Him, I was able to stand in front of my peers and make light of my pit stains. It was freeing. To know that my worth is not in my appearance is freeing. To renounce the fear of man is liberating.
Thank you B Squad for loving me as I am, complete with pit stains.
