Quick dry towel, toothbrush in a plastic bag, digging through my backpack and not being able to find my stuff, sleeping on the ground, sitting on the floor of the bus, stocking up on toiletries, needing wifi passwords in order to communicate, not speaking the language, being an outsider, 48 hour travel days, curious stares. I know the drill; it was only 6 weeks ago that I was in the Philippines on the World Race. So I know what I am getting myself into but I found myself asking “why” did I choose to leave the comfort and ease of my home to go back on the mission field?
It was easy for me to forget some of the annoying things of life on the mission field as soon as I got home because of the conveniences of my American life. Such as a guaranteed hot shower, internet that always works, a full closet of clothes organized just to my liking, 5 pillows on my bed with heating pads available if I get too cold, fully working washer and dryer, electricity that never goes out, a car that is always available for me to drive, a phone that I can make calls on at any time, toilets that I can flush toilet paper down. It did not take long for me to remember all of the things that make life a little harder and start living the reality of overcoming those challenges.
I really don’t mind having to put extra effort into daily activities but it sure was nice to have a month at home where I didn’t have to. So that brings me back to “why” did I choose to go back to the exact things that I was happy to be done with? Am I a glutton for punishment? No, I do not feel like I am stuck doing things I don’t like, I actually feel blessed to be able to do the things I love the most. It’s not about all the annoying little things that can sometimes make life difficult, it’s not about me at all. It is about bringing God’s Kingdom to earth, showing love to the hurting, and being Jesus to the people I come in contact with.
I am going to Thailand because that’s where God needs me right now and he chose me to lead a team of girls that he picked to go as well. I am able to grow as a leader and learn how to teach and mentor my team. I met my team a couple of days ago and I am extremely excited to be a part of each of their growth and their journeys. They each contribute something special to the group and I know that God has big things in store for us.
