Why am I so terrified of raising support! My feelings about the World Race went from incredible excitement to intense moments of fear. $16,000! Who can raise that kind of money? Who would support me? Why would they support me? They don’t even really know me. I can’t do this. There is no way! What have I gotten myself into?
Why am I thinking this way?
Looking back at all those questions running constantly through my mind, I realize the main subject is ME! But the Race is NOT about me. It’s about Him and His glory.
A friend made it clear to me this past Wednesday that part of the reason I’m scared might be related to a pride issue! 
PRIDE! Me? No way!
But he’s right!
I’ve always been one to say I hate the idea of the American Dream: a white pick-it fence, big house, 2.5 children and a dog. However, I’ve been deceiving myself this whole time. There is more to the American Dream that I realize I do, in fact, seek after.
We’re taught to be independent, that in order to be successful you must work hard. Often we’re taught it’s better or easier to go at it alone rather than ask for help. Yet, we’re almost used to having things handed to us like we expect happiness and success, a quick fix to an easy life.
I’m scared to send out support letters and raise funds because I’m completely full of spirit squishing pride. I’m a bum, I’m a mooch, I should work super hard and do it all myself, I’ll get three jobs! There I go again, making everything about me.
A wise lady once told me, “There are two things you should never say: I’m scared and I can’t. Because God is in control and with Him all things are possible.” I’m the daughter of the richest guy in the universe! Sure, I alone can’t raise $16,000 but I don’t have to do it alone. Isn’t this the leap of faith I told God I was ready for?
What a humbling experience to rely completely on Him. To know I can’t go at it alone nor should I want to. This Race isn’t just about serving people around the world, but it’s also about allowing God to bless all of us along the way.
“Expect great things from God, attempt great things for God.” William Carey
So guys,
Here go’s my attempt.
