“So the Lord must wait for you to come to Him so He can show you His love and compassion. For the Lord is a faithful God. Blessed are those who wait for His help.” Isaiah 30:18
This past week I started back to classes and with Nursing School it’s like being thrown into a whirlwind. My classmates and I are hitting the ground running. We had a test the first day back and immediately jumped into Injections, Pharmacology and Pre-Post Op. With a month off I was able to recover from last semester as well as prepare for the next 7 months of the program. This in itself is pretty overwhelming.
On top of that, the beginning of the week started out really rough. I found out that I had to re-register for my classes because of something little that I failed to do in time several weeks earlier. That was easy. I just stood in line for 20 minutes at Student Services to be put back in my classes. What was stressful was the financial aid situation. I found out that I had four days to get that set up (again) to receive it or I would have a big fee on my account. Come to find out I had a hold on my account that prevented me from getting my financial aid set up. What? I didn’t even know what the hold was for. This meant going back into Student Services, waiting in line for who knows how long, just to talk to someone in Financial Aid about this hold. Because of the business of my schedule I got this done two days before the fee took affect. I had to appeal my hold and wait for that to be approved.
All during this time I not only was stressed about my schooling finances, but I had also started worrying about my personal and World Race finances several days earlier. Silly right? Solution: give it over to the Lord and trust Him to take care of me; release my worries. I’ve done this countless of times in the past and I’ve seen Him provide for me over and over again. For some reason, this time it was hard to do. Honestly, I ‘tried’ to give it to God, but was very reluctant. For some reason I was holding on to the belief that I could fix my financial situations. This worry and stress was overwhelming and definitely affecting me – how I responded to others, how I kind of avoided God, how it sucked the joy and peace and encouragement out of me. I hated that I was not feeling myself and I knew what I needed to do. I just couldn’t hand over my burden to the Lord.
The day the fee would take place was the day my appeal was approved and I was able to set up financial aid and have everything in line for my schooling finances. Praise the Lord! A lot of stress was relieved that day. I definitely feel like the Lord was seeing how I would respond in trusting in His timing (no matter how last minute it is). I don’t feel like I succeeded at all, but I did learn and grow from it.
It wasn’t until the morning after all of this that I sat in my car before class started and verbally surrendered to the Lord this whole financial stress I had placed on myself and gave Him the praise He deserved for providing for me. The minute I let go of my burden, He was kind in replacing it with peace, kindness, joy and His presence.
It is so amazing to see that He will still work in any situation no matter how you are treating Him in it. He cares about us and He will provide for us!
I’m so thankful that the stress of my personal and World Race finances has been given over to the Lord and I have a peace about everything. He knows what I need and if I’m doing my part things will fall into place.
I love knowing that no matter how many times I fail in trusting the Lord, He is and will always be dependable. I can’t expect Him to take my burdens from me if I’m not willing to hand them over to Him. I need to wait on His help before I can ever succeed in anything I try and do on my own.
**I am currently 7% funded! Thank you to all who have already contributed! I want to encourage you to pray about how you can support me, whether it’s financially, prayerfully or taking part in helping me with fundraising ideas and events!**
