It was long ago when I picked my route for the World Race. I was looking at 5 lists of 11 different countries. Through prayer and seeking advice from others, I finally made a decision.
I picked July 2015 Route 4 – now known as U Squad. Looking at the list of countries I couldn’t wait for my feet to touch ground in South Africa. I wanted desperately to hold the AIDS orphans in Swaziland. I wanted to breathe the smells, see the colors and taste the flavors in India. I wanted see the majesty of the land in Nepal. I wanted to experience Mayan and Mestizo culture in Guatemala. I wanted to speak slang Spanish in Honduras. And I wanted to feed the hungry in the heat Nicaragua.
In this order, I would have removed Cambodia, Vietnam, and then Thailand from my route and replaced with Albania, Greece, and Turkey. But that wasn’t what God had for my life.
Sometime after leaving the US, I was sitting at a beach in Jefferey’s Bay, South Africa and God placed Thailand on my heart. He placed a ministry called Rahab in bar district call Pat Pong in the city of Bangkok on my heart. He placed the women caught up in the sex industry on my heart. He placed the broken men on my heart. He places the victims of the generational curses to follow. He placed the brokenness of a society that creates lady boys on my heart. And He placed the lady boys and their parents on my heart.
I want to go THERE and work with RAHAB. So, in that moment I began a fervent 7 month long prayer asking God to allow me to do ministry with Rahab in Pat Phong in Bangkok, Thailand while I am on the World Race.
I want this so much for my experience in Thailand. I want to be in the darkness and mess of this place God placed on my heart, but Thailand is next month.
Last month, I was saying things like, “when we’re in Bangkok we can . . .” But now Thailand is NEXT month, and I’m thinking things like, “well, where ever I am in Thailand.”
What happened? I trusted God 100% for it. I was so sure He would and COULD make the impossible happen that I was talking about it like it were a guarantee and now I’m not even talking about it.
I’m preparing myself for a no because if I’m prepared it will hurt less. I’m preparing myself for a no because I can see how big this Goliath is (the World Race hasn’t worked with Rahab before).
I don’t want to approach God in this manner. I want to pray believing with all my might it will happen. I want to pray knowing my God CAN do anything. I want to pray believing fully in what I’m asking for.
But I’m not there right now. So, here I am, 7 months into the World Race and asking the God I’ve seen preform miracles right before me to “Help my Unbelief.” And I want to invite you into this.
I want to ask you to pray with me. I want to ask you to ask God to place me in Bangkok with Rahab and all the women there. I want you to ask God to help my unbelief.
But mostly, I want you to ask God to help you believe where you have trouble. And I want you to watch Him to the impossible right before your eyes.
What impossible thing can I join you in praying for? Comment below.
