I came on the World Race thinking it was about what I could do for God and His kingdom. How I could love others and serve them. How I could feed the hungry, serve the poor, reach out to prostitutes and victims of sex trafficking, and make disciples of the nations the way He calls us to. I came on the Race thinking I was going to impact the world. Since I’ve been on the Race, I’ve been able to do all of these things, but the reality of it is, the World Race has not been about what I could do for God, but what God could do for me. How He could wreck my life, rock my world, and completely challenge me in more ways than I was ready for. How He could teach me to love those we meet in the village as well as the community He’s surrounded me with for these 11 months. How He could teach me to receive love from these same people.
You see, coming onto the Race I was a hot mess and I didn’t even realize it. I thought I was in a good place, having done a Discipleship Training School with YWAM and having gone on mission trips in the past. But I was oh so wrong. Truth is, I came into the Race with so much emotional baggage, I didn’t even know what to do with it. The enemy tried to take advantage of me with this…and sometimes I let him. There were times when I just felt too weak and helpless to fight back and stand up against him. But God wasn’t having that. He’s blessed me with an awesome team and squad that love and care about me and is able to speak/remind me of truth. God has really been rocking my world since I’ve been on the Race. He’s been teaching me to pray in more power and authority. He’s been teaching me to be more vulnerable with others. He’s been teaching me to love others as Christ loved us. He’s wanting to use me to do so much, speaking life to people, encouraging them, interceding, and coming against any attacks from the enemy. I recognize that the enemy doesn’t like that God is using me more and more and he’s trying to do all he can to keep me down…but he can’t.
“If God be for us, who can be against us?”
I use to think this meant that God would always take care of us with respect to physical circumstances. Like always having the favor of God on my life when it comes to things such as school, work, and finances. But as I’m I’ve been in Honduras for month 2 of the Race, I’m realizing it’s about so much more. God is constantly fighting for us. For the souls that are lost. For the struggles that we go through as a result of attacks from the enemy. God has been teaching me so much about myself and others this month. It’s been such a roller coaster ride, but it’s been good!
