This is a journal entry I wrote during worship at training camp. This is where I truly began to experience freedom from my past, and I hope that someone reading this is encouraged to let their baggage go and look to Jesus to take it!
I AM FREE!
I AM FREE!
I AM FORGIVEN <3
My past is in the past, the Lord remembers it no more. When he lays his eyes upon me he sees Jesus! We all look like Jesus. My past has no power, the words spoken, the words that cut my heart and soul, are LIES! I AM good enough. I am worthy. God has washed me, wants to release me from myself. Myself is holding me back, holding me hostage. I can't escape ME.
This is not all about me, me, me. It is about God! This is HIS STORY not mine. What character do I want to play? the one who lives for me or the one who lives for the creator of it, the creator of my life, the one who gives me breath?
When God sees me I am blameless, I am worthy, I am pure, I am loved, I am admired, I am holy. God walks along pastures of flowers with me, he holds my hand, he pulls me in close and dances with me. He is in LOVE with me. His love is an endless ocean, a bottomless sea <3<3 There is always more with God, ALWAYS MORE, no matter how much we are given.
My heart has been broken, bruised, cut, played but I am NEW! Sin has no power over me, only if I give it power will it take effect. I am FINISHED being weak, caving into me, turning my ears away when God speaks the truth to me, not taking the way when God provides me the POWER!
I HAVE THE POWER!
I AM FREE FREE FREE FREE!!!!!!!!<3
My life is not my own, I died to me and rose for Jesus. Heaven is inside of me, I am made up of God's DNA, He lives IN ME!
After I wrote this all I could think was I am alive and I am free. I actually wrote that over and over on a page in my journal, but something was ready to burst out of me. I wanted to scream it on the top of my lungs. I closed my eyes to pray and as soon as the lids shut water began to gush over me like a waterfall (not literally, it was a vision). I opened my eyes in disbelief at what I was seeing. I closed them and the water was still cleansing me, washing away my past, making me new! I stood up and began shouting I am alive and I am free with tears pouring down my face (which wasn't weird because everyone was worshiping to loud music and screaming!)
I hope that you are experiencing this freedom, if you want it talk to Jesus or I can help to point you that way!
