So I am going to update you on a few things real fast
1. I am leaving on October 6th!
2. I had a fundraiser last weekend up in the middle of no where. It was a chicken BBQ, but stinkin Irene took a visit that weekend so it was not so successful. After asking God why he had it happen this way I could only come up with one answer: I was relying on the fundraiser more than I was relying on Him to bring in the goods. This church who did this for me was awesome though. They sacrificed so much for me and they didn't even know me. They were being a true church, one without walls!
3. The big news is my love life! I have been single for almost a year now (longest time since the end of high school) and I was loving it. I was learning what it meant to see Jesus as my lover and to become dependent on him and find my worth and value in him. It had gotten to the point where I truly believed that God adored me and cared for me beyond measure, but I wanted someone to fight for me and pursue me.
So I began to have a desire to go on dates and would tell God I wanted to go on one, but knew I couldn't. Well every time I had that conversation with Him I was asked on a date later that day, and I always nicely turned them down. I knew that I was not desiring that person and I made an agreement with the WR to not date before I leave.
So as I was hiking one day I began praying and asked God to show me how he pursues me and fights for me since I can't take the easy way out and find that it guys. I thought that God used guys to fulfill that desire to be fought for, but I was wrong. I complained to Him about the guys asking me on dates and how they seemed nice, but not for me. Why did he send them into my life? Then I realized what God was telling me.
He was showing me that He can send me someone, there is someone available for me, but I am not looking for them. I am looking for Him! He is the only one who can truly satisfy my heart and soul. As for Him pursuing me, He does it everyday if I take notice. If I am desiring flowers God always reminds me that He planted the flowers and trees and placed mountains and creeks on this earth for me to admire (try to compete with that boys). I want to fall to my knees and my heart melts when He paints the sky as the sunsets. He has been taking me to beautiful landscapes and overlooks when driving. Brings me though historic areas with beautiful architecture or through tough areas with people laughing and enjoying each others company. He has been showing me how much he loves me, how he pursues and fights for me, and I am so content with Him right now that I don't really desire a guy in the first place.
These are pictures I again took from my sister, I wish I had better ones, but I think you get the point that God is everywhere and speaking to you. He loves me with:
The sun setting, where ever I am (Maine at this moment)
A big ugly bee feeding off of the tiniest most intricate flowers (everything in nature is so complex!)
The beauty of the work of an artist, again so beautifully intricate
Bringing out my inner child with this stupid seagull walking up to me and my water bottle
It doesn't take much to let God capture your heart for each moment! He is always on the pursuit for you!
