1. To inspire the church to GO serve in the community or around the world
2. To bring some needed recognition to the missionaries in the church
Money was not a huge intention of mine, getting some funds for my trip would be an extra bonus. Well here is where I am confused by it all. I do all this work to prepare for it, I am put under tons of set backs and frustrations, end up having way more than enough of everything from food to musicians, everything looked perfect, but the turn out wasn't that great (there was a decent amount of people, but not what I was expecting since the church is so big). The main reason is because the church did not announce it (which leaves me feeling sort of neglected).
I do not know what God wants to show me from this or what is going to come from it. All I know is that I am in a weird cycle of going from content because I know something will grow from it to being discouraged because I don't see anything. It is a feeling like you did something wrong, one where you want to go back and change everything.
On the lighter note, the people who came said it was great. A wonderful man in the church told me that God was moving in the room, which I was so happy to hear because from the beginning I wanted it to be God's night not mine. I am so proud of myself that I was able to put this all together (with lots of help from a couple missionaries, my sister and my wonderful family). I have realized that I am able to lead something, gained more confidence in myself, and I was able to see who my true supports were. I am sooooo blessed to have these people in my life who are so faithful, committed and trustworthy. I couldn't ask for a better group of friends to walk through life with!
Thank you everyone who helped Gale, Kathleen and I put this together and to all who came out and supported us!
And p.s. I find it better to ask God 'what are you trying to show me?' then 'why…?' But I still always ask why because it is so natural.
