“Ayoooo HAPPY SIX MONTHS UNTIL LAUNCH PEOPLE”
That is the message (along with a slew of super festive emojis) that I woke up to from a squadmate this morning.
In six months, on August 1, my squad and I are heading to our first country of the World Race, South Africa.
My initial thought when I read that was “oh SNAP.”
I wish I could say that was an “oh SNAP” accompanied by only happy, ecstatic feelings. I wish that “oh SNAP” moment came only with thoughts like:
“FINALLY” and “I hope these six months fly by.”
But somehow it was mostly littered with thoughts like:
“Am I telling people enough about this journey?”
“Am I preparing financially well enough?”
“Am I reading my Bible enough?”
“Am I praying enough?”
“Am I working hard enough in fundraising?”
“Am I doing enough to enjoy my last few months in the states for a while?”
“Am I enough?”
“Am I enough?”
“Am I enough?”
Sometimes it feels like the civil war in my mind is never ending.
Honestly, the answer to most of those is probably no. Hello, my name is Kearstin and I do not have it all together. But that doesn’t have to be a disheartening fact.
The cool thing about Jesus is that in this relationship of ours, He’s really, really good at picking up my slack. I can try and try, but my strength will never equate to His. I’m learning to be alright with that.
I’ve always been a “do it yourself, pull yourself up by your bootstraps, do it yourself, prove you don’t need help” kind of person. Always.
If there’s one thing the Lord is teaching me in this journey it’s something along the lines of “Little girl, you are not as strong as you want people to think you are. You are not in as much control as you wish you were. But it’s okay, because I am and I’m handling it. All of it.”
I recently read something that said “Even the smallest drop of God’s strength is more than enough to cover my weak places.”
What a beautiful truth that is.
It’s a truth He’s whispered to my heart over and over in the these months leading up to the Race and one I’m sure He’ll need to whisper to me until the day I die.
I have been so humbled and astonished by the things the Lord has done since I committed to the World Race. I’m so excited to see Him move in wild ways in the next six months of preparation and during our eleven months in the mission field.
Whether you’ve been walking this journey with me for months or for minutes, thank you for being a part of it.
I hope you see the love and glory of Jesus during this journey as much as I do. It’s beautiful, it’s everywhere, and it’s in no short supply.
As always, I want to invite you on this World Race journey with me. Here are a few ways to do that!
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The most important, pray. Right now, I’d love if you’d pray over my squad and myself as we are quickly approaching some of our first fundraising deadlines.
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Subscribe. If you want to subscribe to my blog and stay up to date on what God is doing in my life and in this journey, click the orange “Subscribe for Updates” in the top left-hand corner.
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Share. If my blog has touched you in any way tell a friend by clicking the “Share with” links to share this on social media. Also sharing the link to this shirt fundraiser would be enormous help as well. 🙂
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Order a fundraising t-shirt. From now until February 15, you can order an Isaiah 1:17 inspired shirt I designed at www.bonfire.com/kearstins-word-race/. About 50% of the sale of each shirt goes to funding my Race journey. You can also donate directly to the Race at the top right of this page.
