Hello from Nepal! We have been mostly doing evangelism and teaching at a school. We also had the amazing opportunity to hand out blankets to the villages here. When we got here it was really cold but it has been warming up each day. I have enjoyed the cool; it is a nice break from Africa. I feel like I am finally at the point where I have surrendered all to Christ. It has been a really hard process for me but I know that he has so much for me on the other side of this. I have learned so much from just letting God be my everything. He has shown me how jealous he is for us all and how he wants every part of us. As Paul writes in 2 Corinthians 11:2, “I feel a divine jealousy for you.” I have had to let go of many things that have been distracting me from God and what he wants for me. I had to surrender one of the most important things to be which has been one of the hardest things that I have done in a while but I know that God has a plan for that situation. I realized that I had been holding on and not surrendering many things because of fear and it made me feel safe and comfortable. I just finished reading Kingdom Journeys by Seth Barnes. It is a wonderful book and I highly recommend it to anyone planning on going on a mission trip. The book talks a lot about brokenness and surrender. One quote from Branch Rickey says, “Never surrender opportunity for security.” Also the book talks about how God will take us to the point of surrender at a pace that we can handle. I agree with both of these points. I have learned that opportunity is worth it. God has asked me to surrender little by little to the point where I am at now. I have been searching for a while for my freedom in Christ and I believe that I have found it and now I just have to walk in it. I thought about not surrendering many times but that choice would come with a cost that I did not want to pay. I would have been settling for less than what God has for me and continuing to be in bondage. God showed me that I could drag the process out and hold on to all my stuff or I could end it and just be free. I am so glad that I just decided to let go and be free. I hope that by the next time I blog I am completely walking in my freedom in Christ. Like I said it has been hard but I know that God will bless it. I know that in the end as it says in God’s word, Psalm 37:4, “Delight yourselves in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.” I know that he will satisfy all of my desires. So if God is asking you to surrender to him I suggest that you do it. It will be hard but I promise that God has great things waiting for you on the other side. I included a video at the end of this called "I Don't Regret." I can tell you for sure that I don't regret choosing Christ and that now it is him who holds my whole heart.
Here is a picture of my team at Christmas
