This month has been a rough month. During debrief at the beginning of the month we had 3 nights dedicated to being vulnerable and bringing up things in our life that we are struggling with. 2 out of those 3 nights God placed something on my heart to share.
After those nights the struggles have grown and the attacks from the enemy have been more blatant. He is in my dreams, in my thoughts and has tried everything in his will to pull me away from God.
On Friday Pastor Elomina (sp?) felt moved to pray over all of the women on the squad. I was the first to be prayed for. She placed her hand on my head and started praying over me. Her prayer went in and out of Spanish and tongues. Thankfully one of my squad mates was willing to translate all of her prayers. During her prayer she told me that The Lord was telling her something to tell me. The Lord told me that He had forgiven my past, that there is no reason to look back and that I should move forward towards Him.
The next night I was talking to 3 of the girls on the squad and felt God calling me to be more vulnerable and open up to them; so I did. After our conversation, one of them said that they wanted to share some words with me. She told me that God has forgiven my past and that I should move towards Him.
The same exact words that I had heard the night before.
Yesterday, we had a service for us in English as a refresher for the week. It was a chance to get filled up on the Word before we go back out and give to the community. Our preacher was a missionary from Mexico who has been in Peru for a while. His sermon was about how we all have limitations but God can stretch us and use us without limitations. The first limitation that he talked about was your past and how we let it get in the way of God’s work.
And then the same exact words came out of his mouth that I heard 2 nights in a row….
“God has forgiven your past, don’t go back, and push forward. Do not let it control your life or dictate your future.”
Let the processing begin.
