This past month I have realized how much I have struggled with letting God into my life. There are many reasons for this; feeling unworthy of His love from my past actions and feeling like I have sins greater than forgiveness are just a few. For my entire life music has always spoken to me more than words have. There is one song that has really spoken to me this month here in Bolivia. The name is “Come Away” by Jesus Culture. If you do not know this song I encourage you to buy it on iTunes or listen to it on YouTube. The lyrics go as the following…
Come away with me
It’s never too late, it’s not too late, it’s not too late for you
I have a plan for you
It’s gonna be wild, it’s gonna be great, it’s gonna be full of me
Open up your heart, and let me in.
This past month in Bolivia I have been working on opening my heart, trusting God completely, and following His plans.
I have also struggled with people pleasing. I learned at launch that people pleasing is not always a good thing. I learned that I need to check my heart and pray for guidance when I feel like I should explain a situation or apologize; is it because it really needs an apology or is it because I want to be on everybody’s good side? A situation came up this past week where I felt like I should just apologize and explain myself but a teammate saw my struggle and reminded me to check me heart and asked me why I felt like explaining myself. I then realized that it was for myself and not for God.
Specific prayer request:
I allow God to fill me completely and that I only do things in his will.
Part 2: Honoring Anastasia:
On Friday the 11th of July we took a trip to the salt flats. We spent this time as a time to strengthen our community and to honor Anastasia. For those reading who do not know of Anastasia, she was a member of F squad who died in a car accident 12 days before training camp. It was gladly agreed upon to hold a service for her in each country. In the middle of the Salt Flats, we honored her life by praying and singing 10,000 Reasons. In this moment God surrounded us and held us during such a difficult but joyful moment. Chills were sent down my spine and I know that both God and Anastasia were present in the moment.
