I have been home for about six months now, and to say everything has gone smooth would not be accurate. Yes I have loved spending time with my family, and seeing my nephew be born, and Yes I have been blessed with having my job offered back to me before I was even off the plane, but some things have not been easy, because I was not listening to what God wanted me to do.
You know when you get that feeling that you are not walking in God’s will for your life and nothing is working out the way YOU thought it would, well that is where I have been for about the last four months.
I went to Georgia for searchlight (which is a week that your reunite with your squad at AIM headquarters) and heard God say that I was supposed to move down to Georgia and be a part of CGA (Center for Global Action). In this next season God made it very clear to me that there were three things I needed to do and they were…
- Move away from your family
- Be living in Christian community
- To become more secure in my identity in the Lord
Now all these things sound great and ideal, but it was not what I wanted. I wanted to be with my family after all I just sacrificed them for a year, I know what it looks like at home and it’s comfortable. The other two I figured I could do in my little town just as well as I could in Georgia. So I ignored God. Stayed in Coldwater with my family and worked. Instead of my relationship with the Lord going strong and striving, it started to slide and I was not making time for him. I had no community that would encourage me to get out of the place I was in, or know how to get me out.
But I was still being stubborn. And still wanted MY WILL.
Then God did something that probably not everyone would believe, but he physically made my right ear ring constantly, so much so that I could not hear anything out of it. At first I tried everything to make it stop but after about a month of it, God told me that he plugged my ear so that I would draw closer to him and listen. The next day I made the decision to do the CGA and my ear stopped ringing right that minute. I knew it was God.
I knew I had to continue to move forward with the plan and that is what is next for me, in January I will be moving to Georgia to participate in CGA and all the Lord has for me there. I know this is God’s will for me and I’m done walking outside of his will and trying to make my own will happen. I’m excited for this new season of my life, but I’m also scared for it.
You are the ones who can help with that, as I’m sure you guessed this is a support raised position. This takes you choosing to partner with what God is doing and being blessed by that, and prayers for me and the ministry. I thank you for all the support you gave me while I was on the race and I’m excited to partner with you again in this new journey.
In my next blog I will explain more about CGA.
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