“God, I invite your searching gaze into my heart. Examine me through and through; find out everything that may be hidden within me. Put me to the test and sift through all my anxious cares. See if there is any path of pain I’m walking on, and lead me back to your glorious, everlasting ways— the path that brings me back to you.”
??Psalms? ?139:23-24? ?TPT??
I have now been in Mijas, Spain for a week now. After getting in late last Friday night I moved into my house, took a shower, ate a sandwich, and went to bed. The next morning I woke up and went to the rooftop and was blown away, I thought to myself “I can’t believe I get to live here”.
Our first week has been full of testimonies, listening to the life stories of our leaders, and worshipping and a lot of inner healing, oh and not to mention the entrepreneur class that I get to sit in on every Friday.
If you’re still confused about G42, let me put it short it’s for developing and equipping leaders for missional community living. I came here for the community, for the intimacy with God, and for the mission. Specifically what it may look like for Jezie, Oscar, and myself to run a hospitable coffee house and restaurant out of our community of the 3 of us and Emely (Oscar’s fiancé).
The last few blogs I wrote I was not in a great place. In all honesty the two months between the Race and G42 was probably the darkest season I walked through. As of two days ago I’ve had significant breakthrough from depression and anxiety. There is a residue that lingers, but I know the Lord is bringing healing. This has been a great place to process with people who have gone through the Race, Alumni Squad or Team Lead, went through a period at home, probably went through depression and confusion and now we’re all here.
Home was so hard because the culture of the Race was so different than my life back in the States. The one thing I hope and believe that God is going to show me here in my time at G42 is how to live sustainably wether here or in the states. To not have unrealistic expectations for people back home, but also to not settle for anything less than the changes the Lord has done in me while being gone.
I’m still $3000 away from being fully funded for G42 and the Lord has already blessed me in abundance.
If you have questions about more specifically what G42 looks like, questions about anything, feel free to comment or send me an email!
With love from the Father,
Kaylin A. Starbuck
