The biggest lie I’ve struggled with for such a long time is that God doesn’t enjoy giving me gifts, that it’s annoying for Him to do so. Also, in the same vein, believing that He withholds good for me.
But this month I’ve come to know him as The Giver.
Our month in Colombia I saw Him so sweetly give to me. Many of the things that He gave me were the little things that I didn’t even ask for, but He knew was the desire of my heart. For example, cool weather, beautiful views, being on a team with boys, and finding a really awesome coffee place.
However, beyond that… He has entered me into a season of restoration. A lot of people may read that and think “Oh you’re getting rest, and being refreshed”. That’s actually not at all what I mean by that statement.
On our flight to Colombia out of the States. The Lord revealed to me that in my life, and even more so in the past three years, I have had a lot of things taken and stolen from me, and then there are some things that I thought were stolen or taken from me. All the things that are important to me to thrive in life that I’ve lost, He has told me that He is going to restore them. He’s going to go back to the place where I lost them, and retrieve them for me… I don’t have to do a thing.
So every day I saw this. From different ministry encounters, to encounters with my team, God would flash me back and say “Hey! Remember when you lost this here? I’m restoring that back to you now”.
Not everything in the past month has been an immediate restoring. Some of it has been a process, and some of it has been a promise. But through it all I’ve truly felt the Father’s love, and it has made it all the more easier to give of the abundance that I have received this month.
These pieces of restoration have been part in restoring beliefs and thoughts, but a large part has been physical things of this world as well. Such as being restored worship partners, being restored a community balanced in Spirit and Word, being restored words of affirmation, being restored mentors and leadership willing to lead me in the Holy Spirit and talk about the hard stuff.
This is only scratching the surface of how kind the Lord has been, and how kind He will continue to be to me.
