Listen. Listen to the signs, listen to your heartbeat, listen to your gut, listen to your friends words of advice, listen to what God is saying to you.
Oh sweet girl you knew, you knew it was wrong but you still did it. What’s wrong with having a little fun? Oh sweet girl you knew the consequences but still, you proceeded. Sweet sweet girl, your heart breaks inside but you still continue. Because what’s wrong with a little fun? Oh sweet girl you knew you were happy but not to the fullest. Sweet girl, you think it is sweet love but it is not. You keep accepting the love you think you deserve. You think that is real love? Let me show you, let me prove to you what real, true, undeniable, insanely incredible love is. You are comfortable, but comfort is not extraordinary love. Let me show you a love that is so unfathomable that you have never even felt it before.
There you are, comfortable, but empty. Let me fill your heart. Let me in.
“heartbreak isn’t the end of the world, just the end of one word.”
Look at you. Sweet girl you are crying and clinging to him but do you not know the love I have waiting for you? Do you not know that I have loved you forever and will continue to forever do so?
You can’t do it without me, you know you can’t.
I know I can’t.
There you go, look at you now, you are so strong.
I know it hurts but you cannot fathom the joy that is to come.
You did it, you’re walking up your front porch, you’re doing it!! Look at you!!!
oh. but wait. there he is again shouting “I LOVE YOU”
You can do it, open the front door.
But I need to say it back “I love you too”
Sweet girl, turn around and open the door.
Look at yourself in the reflection of the windows, look at the pain in your shaking eyes. Now open the door and know that your pain will be taken away. Just open it.
I’m here.
A couple of weeks have passed since I’ve opened the door. Jesus is here. Living, breathing and growing inside me and everywhere around me. It is so incredible to me that through this whole time of me knowing what God has wanted of me, it took me so long to have the courage to do it. To take that leap of faith was the best thing I’ve ever done in a long time and God knew it all along. I was so resistant to listening to him because I was afraid of the pain and didn’t want to be uncomfortable. But oh man let me tell you, that when he says “our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us” GOD WAS NOT JOKING AROUND. Seriously. It’s so crazy to me that I thought the love that I was receiving was what real love was. I did not know the love that was waiting for me. This crazy, unimaginable, fulfilling love was just waiting for me to open the door and say “Here I am lord, I’m ready, take me.”
It only takes a little faith to be overwhelmingly filled with joy. And man it’s so worth it. It’s worth every ounce of pain and heartache, to feel this incredible godly love.
Love is beautiful. The love you get from your dog’s squeals as you walk in the front door. The love you feel as your sweetheart kisses your forehead. The love you get from a friend when they say “text me when you get home so I know you’re safe!” The love you feel when your little sister pops her head through your bedroom door to say “I love you Kaylin”. The love you feel when a far away friend calls you at 2am to ask what your favorite type of coffee is (because what else would be on your mind at 2am?). The love you feel when your mom yells at you and your brother to “knock it off!” as you dance in the kitchen, at midnight, on a school night. I love that love. But God’s love…that’s something exquisite.
Give me the strength to say “it is well with my soul”.
