Currently I find myself in hour 12 of our 14 hour flight to Guangzhou, China. We had a 17 hour layover in San Francisco and are looking forward to another 6 hour wait in China before we are off to Phnom Penh! From there we will take a couple hour bus ride to Battambang, where we will be staying for the month.
Hours of sitting around waiting allows time for your mind to wander. It’s week one and I already miss home. I miss my family and friends and I actually miss the place I have lived all of my life. I miss it all because that is what is comfortable to me; it is what is familiar. But, looking around at my squad, I realize that this is familiar to me now too. We laugh together and are weird. And sure, we are on our way to Cambodia—a land where we don’t speak the language and is very unfamiliar to us, but we get to do these hard things together.
All the time waiting allows time for doubts and worries to creep in. I feel highly unqualified. I feel far away from those who I love and those who love me. The truth is I’m NOT qualified. And I AM miles away from those back home that I love. But, I also know that God doesn’t call the equipped, He equips the called. And there are 46 people that are on this plane with me who I have grown to love so much and they have shown me time and time again that they love me too.
Just as God has gone before us and will work along side us in Cambodia and everywhere else throughout the race, I must trust that He is just as present back home.
