Hello from India friends and family! I first want to recognize the fact that it has been quite some time since I last wrote a blog. Sorry this has taken so long, due to safety and being in a closed country and still are in a closed country, we were and are limited with what can be posted. With that I would greatly appreciate it if you don’t share this on social media.
Nepal was a whirl wind this past month and so good!
At the beginning I asked the Lord what gifts and passions He has given me. I wanted to press into those and make sure that I am giving them away. He told me a huge desire I have is to be a mom. I thought that was a little strange, because well I am very much single and don’t plan on getting married any time over these next five months while leading and also pregnancy in and of itself is 9 months. So slightly confused at first was how that desire left me that He shared. I asked why are you brining that up now and He shared “Kayleigh my dear, I have given you all of these racers to nurture and love”. I thought to myself ok. I knew there was more that I was going to step into but wasn’t quite sure what exactly that was going to look like for me, but there was more.
So my month in Nepal started and I was beyond excited. This month teams were split up and my girls and I were going to be together just us. I was so thankful to have time with just them. To get to pour into them, to get to just do life with them and for the depth that would come from that.
After the first four days, myself and over twenty others on my teams and my co leaders teams began to get sick. Let me tell you diarrhea and vomiting in Nepal is no joke, especially when there is only one toilet. I will spare you the details.
This is when it all started. People began getting sick left and right. It didn’t stop all month. It was one thing after another. As a squad leader when racers are sick and in the hospital, we stay with them.
What I thought was going to be a month with just my girls turned into something very very different. I ended up spending six days out of my month with my girls. The rest were spent in the hospital, staying home with people, and caring for sick people on my teams.
What I didn’t realize until reflecting on this month, is that the desire of being a mom came to fruition, just in an unexpected way. This past month was crazy, chaotic, I was not in a location longer that four days, and all over the place. I also got to love my people in some of their hardest times. I got to care and nurture for them when they didn’t feel good and really just wanted to be home. It was a beautiful blessing intertwined into something that wasn’t very fun.
This month was not what I wanted to happen or what I thought should happen. The Lord knew what was going to happen though and had me at the right place each moment, with exactly who I needed to be with.
Gifts and desires. The Lord gives them to us, it’s just up to us to ask what they are and how He wants to use them.
