Thankfulness is not something that I am good at. I mean I want things to happen when I want them too. So this whole thing of God having His own timing…. Yea I’m not a huge fan sometimes. It really can drive me up a wall. Why can’t things happen when I think they should? But that isn’t how God works. He works in His time. And His time is good enough. He is good enough. And if He is good enough then I am good enough. And I am good enough to wait on him.
I am thankful for the hard time he has me in right now, of not knowing if I have money. I don’t know if I will have the funds for the next deadline and that is ok. I am so thankful for the experience I get to have now. I am so thankful that my truck hasn’t sold yet. That means I have to keep trusting and relying on God and His timing. I am thankful for the people he has placed around me. For they have given me more than I could ever imagine. They have given me the freedom to grow into the person God has called me to be. And yes that means that they are pushing me and helping me even when I don’t want it sometimes. I am so thankful for the doubts that have shown up in my life. That means I have to work through the person I was to become the person I am meant to be. I am thankful for the amazing family I have. They sometimes drive me up a wall. But they are the most encouraging people ever. They have helped me even when they don’t know. I am thankful for the presence of God showing up in the people around me and in me. He has shown up every time we need Him and then even other times. I am thankful for moving so much and how that has shaped me into the person I am now. Without all of the tough times in that I wouldn’t be able to handle the challenges that arise up now. I would not be as strong as I am today. All of the things that have seemed to be hard are now a blessing. They have shown me the wonders of God and His glory. He is grace in the hard times, He is peace in the chaos, He is love in the trials of life. He is the only thing that keeps me going and pushing to be a better person. Thank you God for the time you have me in life. This is the best season yet.
