I am sitting here in the hotel in Atlanta and it all is hitting me that this is real now…. It all has seemed so far away and now it is here. Its almost like I don't know what to do now. How prepared can you really be for 11 months away from home? I feel like this is where I belong, but some doubts keep trying to creep in. But I know God has a plan for me here with my amazing squad!
We leave Sunday for Albania. I feel like it is not time to be leaving now. I am so excited though to be with this group of crazy Jesus seekers. Travel today was hard though. I am not a cryer but I feel like I have turned into a bawl baby. At random moments in the day my eyes start to water. I didn't think it would be so hard to say goodbye. I mean today is my moms birthday so I was like happy birthday i love you bye. And I had to leave at 6:30 so no one was really up. Matt (my boyfriend) brought me to the airport and it didn't hit me until I got through security that it was the last time I was going to see everyone for almost a year. Honestly today I just wanted to call home and tell everyone I got to my destination safe. But my phone is back at home, so I cant contact anyone and it has really gotten to me. Right now I still feel like im in a daze, I didnt think I was even going to be able to come.
If it wasn't for the people supporting me I wouldn't have made it to launch. I still look back to the phone call of being told that I got the money to go. I didn't know how to feel and I am excited now, but still feel like it is a dream, or a trick. But I know it isn't. I know I am repeating myself but it is all I can think about. I really can not wait to get out on the field and meet our contacts and see what God has planned. I think we all will grow so much and it is going to be the best year of our lives!
