What do YOU want to do?
A question that I was very excited to hear. Let me explain to you why..
Ever since I decided to follow God and His plan for my life, I found myself asking God what I was supposed to do in almost every situation before I even knew what I wanted. I wanted to follow HIM not ME. I had already led myself down the road of destruction and I was making sure I wouldn’t go down that road again. So once I had a decision to make, I would pray about it and expect God to speak to me, or at least give me peace about which choice was right. It seemed like He always came through.
So I came to the point where I faced a really important decision in my life. I knew that either way, whichever decision I made, there would be a good outcome. But I really wanted to hear God on this one. I wanted to have a word to stand on that no matter how hard it got, I would know that I made the right choice. I prayed 3 months constantly asking God what I was supposed to do. I heard nothing. I tried to imagine myself in both scenarios to see how I would feel about each one, and I felt peace for both. I was really confused and I had no idea which road I was going to take. I was fully depending on God to figure this one out for me.
I learned a very valuable lesson throughout this time in my life. God is just like our parent. When you’re a baby Christian He will lead you down the right path, He will help you as much as He can. Once you’ve matured and grown up, He doesn’t need to tell you every move to make anymore. God made humans to have free will for a reason. He wants us to think for ourselves, be creative, and experience life to the fullest. Sometimes that comes with making mistakes. But we have to know that when we are hearts are turned towards God, when we are 100% willing to follow His plan for our lives, that no matter where we go, no matter what we do, we are blessed and highly favored! I started to realize that I could take either path of life, God would bless me either way, and He would direct my steps. I was so eager to listen to God and follow Him. I was scared that I was going to fall off track of His plan and miss the great things He had for me. But I really felt like God just asked me, “Kaylee, what do YOU want to do?” I felt like God gave me new responsibility, I felt so honored that He trusted me enough not to mess my life up again.
We have to remember that God is our Father. He wants the best for us, but He isn’t going to hold our hand our whole lives and make every decision for us. He has great plans for us but the path we take is sometimes unknown and that’s the adventure of life!
Now speaking of adventure, I have been led down the path of going on The World Race! God has a funny way of somewhat "guiding" me towards my next step in life, He does it in a way that makes me feel like I found it myself, when He really had it planned all along! The World Race isn't something that I heard from a friend, or something I had read about, I found The World Race on Google. Sounds funny right?
Well I have been on quite a few short-term mission trips, but everytime I went my heart just longed to stay there. I needed MORE. I had looked into many programs and almost was sold on moving to Africa to work in an orphanage for a year, but there was something missing. So one night I Google searched "Adventurous mission trips" and of course The World Race was the result of my search! Everything looked amazing, it was everything I have been looking for, but the cost seemed so daunting. This really discouraged me for about a week, but as I continued to pray and seek God, I just felt a YES in my heart.
This was my next step. God may not have directly spoken to me, but He has mysterious ways of showing us our next mission in life. Sometimes when you can't find clarity and you can't find direction, even when you are looking to God for it, I encourage you to just keep seeking, because He won't let you down. He will come through.
