What does faith look like?
Sometimes it looks like peace, sometimes it looks like love. Sometimes it looks like free falling without knowing who is there to catch you at the bottom- or if anyone even will.
But faith is beautiful in its time, and there is nothing more exhilarating in life than free falling with Jesus.
This season of my life has been a lot of free falling moments- definitely a season of learning to do things on my own in new ways. Things I’d never dreamed of, like attending weddings and parties without a soul by my side, driving myself to surgery in a different state than my family resides, flying alone across the hemisphere to a country where I can only converse at a kindergarten level, and finally, literally free falling off of a 150 foot waterfall. These are all new things I have learned to do with The Lord over the past couple weeks.
We are never alone, never truly if we open our eyes to see where He is.
This season has been a lot of learning to trust in Him. Trust His goodness. Trust His fatherly love for me, like the song says…
“You’re a good, good Father. That’s who You are. And I am loved by You. That’s who I am. You are perfect in all of Your ways…”
Identity is never something I thought I had struggled with, but I’m learning more and more that my identity is wrapped confidently in more than I am truly supposed to own.
I am kind, loyal, loving, sweet, gentle, bold, confident, loud yet quiet, a good listener, a good friend, a good sister, daughter and a follower of Jesus. But those things aren’t WHO I am.
“I AM: loved by You”
That’s WHO I am.
The Lord has been breaking off things I thought I had been given as pieces of myself, his gifts and blessings in my talents, personality and reshaping my heart. But those things don’t ultimately make up WHO I am. I AM LOVED BY HIM.
Realizing those things don’t define me- even the best parts of them. The good and the bad don’t stay stuck to me, I am learning what living and trusting with Jesus everyday looks like.
And it’s taken me many places on my own. But I would rather free fall off a waterfall knowing I am loved by a good Father than trust in myself any day.
This squad is incredible, and they teach me new things each day. We’ve served in VBS camps, teaching english, orphanages, women & children care for the abused and all around the communities in Quito, Ecuador and Truijillo, Peru. God is using this squad to change the world, and to change one another- they are constantly learning to chase after Jesus, and trust HIM alone. And everyday, they’re teaching me more and more what free fallin’ faith really looks like. Here’s to a new day, every day, for the rest of my life- each day a new gift and I get to trust him, take a giant leap and put in the words of Tom Petty… “Now I’m freeeeeeeeeeeeee fallin'”.
The 150 foot waterfall we LITERALLY free fell from.
Photo Credit: My Awesome Co-Leader, front & center, Dustin Mick.
